Wake up love, the day has arrived
And there is a sweet message that awaits
Music always filling the air
Sweet glances continually exchanged
I found a new reason just like I found one yesterday
To admire and enjoy every morsel of your being
Getting to the point of being totally comfortable
Nestled in you
Growing more comfortable with me with you
Nerves are starting to settle quicker
I try not to be nervous
But school girl feelings surface
It's been a while...
A while since my heart felt comfortable enough to trust
And believe that beauty like this could be found
And not flee or turn into something else
Words backed up with genuine kindness
Touch gentle and unassuming, filled with respect
Gaze matched with adoration
Taking things slowly with mutual affection
Treating hearts with utmost care
Looking to build a strong foundation
Getting settled enough to trust again...
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Still a Little Jaded or Maybe I'm Just Seeing Clearer Now
I have to admit that I've been wondering how much life seems to be a crap shoot. Nothing seems guaranteed especially when love comes into question. We all seem to be in search of something deeper, more pure, more perfect that will quench that longing rooted deep within our humanity. Yes, God can and does satisfy that longing. But He's the only one that's perfect. I guess I can say that I've given up on looking for some romantic golden calf. In the process of finding some middle ground between what I've always dreamed of and what is realistic while still being mindful of my dreams.
In the here and now where visibility and tactile senses are in want of something palpable, religion seems to lack the ability to fulfill all that the heart longs after. That's why we were built for relationship and not religion. I guess I've just been around too much "religion" lately to really want to talk along religious lines. But if you know me well, you'll know me well enough to know that I'm never really up for talking along "religious" lines. Now talking about relationship with God is a totally different cause. However,I do know at the root, beneath all the religious garbage that the world bombards us with, there is truth. So I'm still in search of truth trying to figure out how much of life happens by chance if any of it does at all. Still trying to find beauty and truth amidst a heap of flaws, myself included... Or maybe I'm just trying to find truth inside of the flaws rather than out.
Learning how to love people more where they are is a good thing...
P.S. On the video bar to your right is a Cuban Jazz group called Buena Vista Social Club. If you're up for something a little different, check it out :)
In the here and now where visibility and tactile senses are in want of something palpable, religion seems to lack the ability to fulfill all that the heart longs after. That's why we were built for relationship and not religion. I guess I've just been around too much "religion" lately to really want to talk along religious lines. But if you know me well, you'll know me well enough to know that I'm never really up for talking along "religious" lines. Now talking about relationship with God is a totally different cause. However,I do know at the root, beneath all the religious garbage that the world bombards us with, there is truth. So I'm still in search of truth trying to figure out how much of life happens by chance if any of it does at all. Still trying to find beauty and truth amidst a heap of flaws, myself included... Or maybe I'm just trying to find truth inside of the flaws rather than out.
Learning how to love people more where they are is a good thing...
P.S. On the video bar to your right is a Cuban Jazz group called Buena Vista Social Club. If you're up for something a little different, check it out :)
Quick Update: New Layout & New Links
New Layout: If this is your first time, welcome to my new layout. And if you're one of people that have been following this blog for quite some time, what do you think in contrast the the old layout? I'd honestly like to know if you do or do not like it. So let me know :)
New Links: There are quite a few new links that I added to a section to your right entitled "Things from here and around the world..." section. It's a better reflection of the things/artists I'm interested in and provides some things that I thought would be nice to share. I can guarantee that there's at least one music artist there that you've never heard of amidst some more mainstream and popular favorites. But, it is just a smattering of things I like and is not comprehensive. Didn't want to bore you with too many links on the side.
And I know, I need to get my butt into gear and get some new pictures for the profile and pictures link. I can't say exactly when that will change, but I am mindful that some change is needed there.
New Links: There are quite a few new links that I added to a section to your right entitled "Things from here and around the world..." section. It's a better reflection of the things/artists I'm interested in and provides some things that I thought would be nice to share. I can guarantee that there's at least one music artist there that you've never heard of amidst some more mainstream and popular favorites. But, it is just a smattering of things I like and is not comprehensive. Didn't want to bore you with too many links on the side.
And I know, I need to get my butt into gear and get some new pictures for the profile and pictures link. I can't say exactly when that will change, but I am mindful that some change is needed there.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Poem: For You: A True Story
I have been there before
I've walked a couple of miles in your shoes
Though we didn't have a house and all the pomp and circumstance yet
I saw all my dreams crash around my head
And break my heart
Names of children picked out
Career paths talked about
Weaving our lives together
Many nights by him
Many mornings resting my head on his chest
Families met and supported
Rings purchased and worn
Our love stretched across state borders, oceans, and foreign lands
Three years of our lives spent
I thought he was the one...
My children would call daddy
And I'd grow old with
But his anger wouldn't subside
And I couldn't shake a violent act I saw
I tried to be strong
I tried to be there for him
But I couldn't shake my fear for myself or my unborn
I couldn't answer yes to my questions anymore
Would he be a great husband?
Would he be an excellent father?
I didn't want to be that woman who loved her husband so much that she defended his abuses
So I ended it...
Thinking I was just fine
I started seeing someone else
One word can only describe that...
Disaster
Alcoholism hid well as did his bipolar ways
It all compounded matters
Put off the healing needed
I got over the rebound quickly
But months, many months passed before
Healed from all that embodied him and us
Many months with each day filled with tears
Unable to sleep
Unable to eat
Unable to do much of anything
Broken heart in a million pieces
I mourned what seemed to be the death of my future
A year an a half to heal
Love can do crazy things to the heart
I'd like to say I hope your story is different
That healing comes quickly and heart ache ends swiftly
I believe our past experiences are only shadows
We look back at our experiences and say, "That was not love"
We exercised it and seemed to know it's deeper meaning
But they seemed to forget
Or maybe they never knew that love is always kind, always gentle, and covers over all else
They knew not love and only abuse
Battering our hearts and almost all hope
But real love and God calls us to move on
To take the time needed for the mending of our hearts
To allow room for love to take root again for those who can reciprocate it
To give life a chance
Now I don't know what life will bring
Specifics are always unknown
What I do believe is that the best in life has yet to come...
I've walked a couple of miles in your shoes
Though we didn't have a house and all the pomp and circumstance yet
I saw all my dreams crash around my head
And break my heart
Names of children picked out
Career paths talked about
Weaving our lives together
Many nights by him
Many mornings resting my head on his chest
Families met and supported
Rings purchased and worn
Our love stretched across state borders, oceans, and foreign lands
Three years of our lives spent
I thought he was the one...
My children would call daddy
And I'd grow old with
But his anger wouldn't subside
And I couldn't shake a violent act I saw
I tried to be strong
I tried to be there for him
But I couldn't shake my fear for myself or my unborn
I couldn't answer yes to my questions anymore
Would he be a great husband?
Would he be an excellent father?
I didn't want to be that woman who loved her husband so much that she defended his abuses
So I ended it...
Thinking I was just fine
I started seeing someone else
One word can only describe that...
Disaster
Alcoholism hid well as did his bipolar ways
It all compounded matters
Put off the healing needed
I got over the rebound quickly
But months, many months passed before
Healed from all that embodied him and us
Many months with each day filled with tears
Unable to sleep
Unable to eat
Unable to do much of anything
Broken heart in a million pieces
I mourned what seemed to be the death of my future
A year an a half to heal
Love can do crazy things to the heart
I'd like to say I hope your story is different
That healing comes quickly and heart ache ends swiftly
I believe our past experiences are only shadows
We look back at our experiences and say, "That was not love"
We exercised it and seemed to know it's deeper meaning
But they seemed to forget
Or maybe they never knew that love is always kind, always gentle, and covers over all else
They knew not love and only abuse
Battering our hearts and almost all hope
But real love and God calls us to move on
To take the time needed for the mending of our hearts
To allow room for love to take root again for those who can reciprocate it
To give life a chance
Now I don't know what life will bring
Specifics are always unknown
What I do believe is that the best in life has yet to come...
Poem: Her Face
Sipping coffee alone in a crowded room
And across with sanguine cheeks of glee
She sat there with son aside
Kissing his cheeks and fingers
Him giggling with joy
Carefree and innocent
It all almost brought me to tears
She was beautiful and he was perfect
Seeing mothers with their children
And fathers with theirs
It all awakens a longing
And I try to avoid it for fear of mistake and wrong timing
But my children wait in me to be born
They wait for their father to come and bring them to life
And it was her face and her son that uncovered
That longing most deep within...
And across with sanguine cheeks of glee
She sat there with son aside
Kissing his cheeks and fingers
Him giggling with joy
Carefree and innocent
It all almost brought me to tears
She was beautiful and he was perfect
Seeing mothers with their children
And fathers with theirs
It all awakens a longing
And I try to avoid it for fear of mistake and wrong timing
But my children wait in me to be born
They wait for their father to come and bring them to life
And it was her face and her son that uncovered
That longing most deep within...
Saturday, March 01, 2008
Quick notes a.k.a. "Kyera's a Mental Blurbs"
Since I don't have a whole lot of time to write a full out post right now, here's a brief synopsis of my thoughts of late....
1) I'm glad that God provides doors when temptations present themselves and the strength to walk out of those doors and into freedom from temptation. (Mental note, stay away from rich and attractive European men that don't know God.)
2) Waiting for the right one is worth every single effort of now and maintaining complete emotional integrity and physical purity is crucial. Thank God for continued victory :)
3) It's awesome to know that God helped me to become 100% credit card debt free considering the status of our economy.
4) Colds suck...They always have and always will.
5) I'm excited about going to see Carmen Consoli in August. She's an Italian musician and I've been a fan of her's since my first visit to Italy in 2000. I figure, if you can't get to Italy right away let Italy come to you :)
6) I love my Mom. She rocks!
Anyway, these are my mental blurbs for the day. I'm sure in the next couple of days I'll have more time to express something deep and profound that's been on my mind whether it be through a poem or a regular post. Until then, catch a hug and have a fantastic day!
~Kyera
1) I'm glad that God provides doors when temptations present themselves and the strength to walk out of those doors and into freedom from temptation. (Mental note, stay away from rich and attractive European men that don't know God.)
2) Waiting for the right one is worth every single effort of now and maintaining complete emotional integrity and physical purity is crucial. Thank God for continued victory :)
3) It's awesome to know that God helped me to become 100% credit card debt free considering the status of our economy.
4) Colds suck...They always have and always will.
5) I'm excited about going to see Carmen Consoli in August. She's an Italian musician and I've been a fan of her's since my first visit to Italy in 2000. I figure, if you can't get to Italy right away let Italy come to you :)
6) I love my Mom. She rocks!
Anyway, these are my mental blurbs for the day. I'm sure in the next couple of days I'll have more time to express something deep and profound that's been on my mind whether it be through a poem or a regular post. Until then, catch a hug and have a fantastic day!
~Kyera
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